Decisions

aah, decisions. it's amazing how we can pre-condition our thoughts to the point where we're believing what we're telling ourselves. for years, i've been telling myself one thing €and completely engaging myself in some other direction ... a more interesting choice. unconscious decisions are more of what is speaking to us in true form. just because you tell yourself that you're a failure, doesn't mean that you are. as human beings, we are so used to talking; with talking comes telling ourselves what to do, giving orders, issuing commands. but at the end of the day, what is our true feel good outcome: what really makes us feel great. what do i want in life? i have a wonderful opportunity to do which i know will bring me closer to a happier, more fulfilling existance. my heart has decided. it is now time to issue the most important, life altering decision upon my mind. it's alright :)

How Many Days

This is precisely how many days I've been "out of it" this summer. Well, it's finally the first day of summer today, but since I've been out of school since the end of April, it technically is summer to me :)

I haven't been feeling well at all lately. I've been feeling my confidence waver as the job market continues to turn down it's nose at me <:( I really do miss having a job; further more, I miss working *every* day. I love working, so for that, I'm thankful to press on with so many personal projects that I have currently on the go! A cartoon entry to the Cartoon Network, an 8-bit style RPG game, I'm learning Unity, modeling a 3D video game type character, as well I am working on websites for my brother-in-law, as well as one for myself.

When I consider all the things that I have on the go, and how much I love doing all of these things, I'm happy to rest...but seriously, it's time to get back to work!! ;p

Lappie Blogging

Doing everything with my new BlackBerry is hilarious...but lacks capital letters on this blog. I wonder why it does that? No worries to that, there's good in each of these devices, and I love them all equally.

Going to continue on with the Durston Honey Farms website today...as a cat walks over my laptop X3 (I can't get angry with them for such cute things; I know they're just trying to get my attention). Not much to finish on the website, then I'm just waiting for copy to add.

Going to get back at it in Maya today as well, with a few more lessons, and then continue modeling Mylo.

I Try

i really have been...i guess not everyone's going to be good at everything in one lifetime. it's just still so easy to feel superfluously alone. this is why a life-time of training solo has been seemingly useful; at the end of the day, i'm generally always alone. *itteh bitteh self-piteh committeh* i know this isn't always as it seems, but we truly cannot be happy all the time. going to work in 3d today; this should make me smile.

RPG Game in Full Swing

things are going well with the rpg game. maps are all graphically sound, and with mr. twitcher's testing help, i was able to correct quite a few annoyances. nobody needs to be agrivated while playing games! starting to get tired, but im interested in continuing making interior maps. going to do a pile more, hopefully this will lessen the pile for tomorrow; then characters can be added!

Wakka Wakka!

for as long as i can remember, i've thought my stories should have a functional, gripping story-line...and then i met axe-cop :3 this has broadened my senses as a story-teller; i've decided to run with the randomness that might lead to more interesting tales! serious is good, but i'm far too goofy to run with that for long. with having gotten back into making my rpg game, i'm going to further the story in a more hilarious direction. we've all been subjected to serious: it's time to present more crazy fun!!

New Days Are Things to Get Excited About!

its a beautiful new day out there...and i'm still unable to phone-post with caps o_o; oh well :3

i'm going to get back on the map making train this morning; i am also going to call the boys' vet to see what all i can do for them, to help make them and my home less threatening to those with cat allergies! yes, once upon a time, i stated i would not date anyone with a cat allergy...buuut he's worth it, so changes shall be made!! :3

i'm feeling mildy dopey and keep flipping back and forth between new projects; i need to buckle down at some point in the day and get back to editing my brother-in-law's website. it's looking super good so far! it's amazing what you can do with only a jquery function! :3

alright, now to locate my motivation, and set it to warp speed!!

Blogging from My Phone...

yes i never thought i'd see the day when this was possible. i can't capitalize anything, so i'm getting derpy flashbacks from my old, broken phone! ... at least all the punctuation still works, huzzah!

spending my days between uber happiness, job hunting and working on the game i started in rpg maker vx. that's one program i could not live without! the "no capital letters" are making me sad, signing off!

3D Model - Mylo, Continues

The cuteness saga continues this morning as Mylo's face continues to flourish in shape.

• Just lined up all center vertices to be straight all the way, up and down. This will help to save time tweaking, later on down the line.
• Correcting overlapping faces as I work; again, doing this now will save heaps of time!

Further tweaks; building the rest of the face right now. Mylo started out as a cat-boy design, but I think I'm going to make him a few different heads, to incorporate for different animals. Ooh! And then a female body type, to allow for a wide variety of different characters!
















This has been such an inspiring learning process! I used to think a head could be made straight from a cube or sphere - but this way of modeling a character head makes way more sense to me! FTW!

Hmm...It's ironic that both his name and the name of another girl kitty character I'd created for drawing class both start with the letter "M" -- I think "Myra" was her name. =^__^= They're going to be the first two in the series. Hair and clothing objects are going to be separate models to allow for a wider range of character possibilities. Myra had the cutest little pig-tails!

One goal I have this summer is to learn model rigging. These happy cats are going to receive this treatment - and the clothes will need rigging as well.

3D Model - Mylo

This is the first sculpted 3D model I've decided to take on, I'm quite proud.
I'll be posting screen shots of my progress throughout my blog.
Model started at 5:00PM

Edge Loops - Important factors in stabilizing the eye and mouth regions.

















With having segregated the eyes and mouths in their own separate edge looping areas, the nose has stayed within it's own area, thus becoming it's own component. Going slow, but Mylo's coming to life, none the less.

Apart

Hey, it's okay to fall apart some days, right? It's not like I have anything better to do. *chuckles* I'm going to find a good job over the summer, although it may take some time. I'm going to start posting ads on Kijiji.ca to show case some of my groovy web skills; this is one outlet I hadn't even considered.

This is why we need to embark on new adventures...you never know what good is going to come from things :3

Toon Character Modeling

Ok, there's a goal, I've set for myself. ...I'm going to try to not touch any web today, if I can help it :3 I think I maybe slept 4 hours last night. That's brutal! I just couldn't sleep, but that's fine by me! I managed to get a full website estimate and contract finished this morning, as well as I fixed the issues with the Durston Honey Farms website!!

Now to play/learn/I need a coffee!!

PS. Cat on arm, too long, makes for sleepy limbs X3 .:zzzz:.

Cartoons VS Real-Time

In the years that I've been working in 3D, I've seeded this bizarre expectation in my brain: everything should look realistic. Even when I was working on the entrance portfolio for the RRC course I'm taking, there was this strange vibe that my works always have to reflect on "realism." I understand where this is coming from; all the 3D that's influenced me has some quality of realism.

As of late, I've been pondering, "why the heck would I want to go that far?" while I'm exuberantly content with being a cartoonist. Thinking long-term, I understand we have to do a major studio project for next year - all the works I've seen from 3D have been so catered to realism...but is that really me? What really drives me crazy (in a good way): the realistic graphics that have taken the new Final Fantasy games? Or the adorable cartoony styles of Harvest Moon and Animal Crossing?

When I was a wee lass, I had a town-full of characters that seemed to evolve on their own; their personalities and adventures were bar-none to anything I was supposed to be doing in my life. Why yes, this did affect me academically, although I always kept my head above water and passed all my courses. I graduated on time, with no issues, but this was always my mega-dream. Since 12 years old, I'd decided I wanted nothing more than to see this world someday in it's own television series.

Thinking long-term and in the now, I'm going to take my modeling in the direction of my cartoon style. I see how important it is to gain more knowledge in the 3D field of realism ... but when it comes to "what we want to do," I know my place in the artistic world. Thus, I'm old, I've got the skills and resources at my finger tips. I've no doubt in my mind this is where I want to be.

So to happily rip off Nike for a mo, "just do it." (And bwahaha!! It is three words in the English dictionary!! You cannot sue me!!...) ...

*run*run*run*slam*vroooom*screeeeech* ...

Comics

One done on May 2nd, another May 7th. :3 Seeing all these comics uploaded in friends' facebook status' mucho inspired me to get back on the occasional comicking wagon!

Click each to view in full size!

Another Day, Another Coffee

Good day, Super Monday! You're just the person I wanted to talk to, listen, I've been thinking...
I've been out of school for an entire weekend, and already I'm feeling the sting of being nonproductive.

...Whoa?! I was just about to post about "wanting to find a job super soon," and I was just called in for an interview today for 3PM!! :3 I feel like the luckiest girl in the world! And I shall work my butt off to be a groovy asset to their company!! :D

One Ends, Another Begins

Exciting times, we have here!! Last day of school was today; I stayed up until 4am this past morning to finish my demo reel, to be included in the 2nd year DMT's Open House. It looks pretty good, for a beginner :3 I'm very proud of myself!

Check it out here http://vimeo.com/23064256

As well, I keep hearing about how we're going to need to register for our own domain and hosting next school year, so I decided to take the plunge into retrieving my old site: RubyDragon.net :3 I'm pleased to announce, that I plan to work the WordPress side of this throughout the next school year...as it's something we're going to have to create for a 2nd year major project!

I love writing, so I'm excited to get my old site back!! Yaay!

Frame 99 / 108 ...

...I can hear my bed hissing at me, as I type. ...No, was that a cat? ...I'll bet my DS is was the toilet.

WAITAMINUTE!!!!?...I can edit the HTML in Blogger?! 8D

...This shouldn't excite me, but....

• Get out of my head!


• Maybe I just spelt "maybe" wrong?!


• This would be a great time to learn how to use that bread maker...

Frame 103 / 108
Soon...



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Quit locking your Rim Light!!


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This is officially the worst list I've ever seen in my life...

Heeeelp meeee! I'm stuck in a Div, and I can't get out!!

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Nearly finished with this one render. ...The lighting in the turntable currently looks like a pile of donkey crap. Blasted shame, it is. Waitwaitwaitwait WHY are you rendering through frames 110?! O_o; I asked you to go to 108????? ..... This is going to get ugly, mega fast! GOOD GOD STOP RENDERING!!!!...........

Quit Harassing Facebook Friends!

...And I shall do so, by BLOG RANTING!....Which technically is much the same...except for the fact that folks can much more easily chose to ignore this.

So, the toilet's broken and the tub gargles every time it flushes...#($%^&*( great.

The cats keep knocking crap off of the desk, while I'm sucluded in the inner sanctum I call "the bathroom." *sigh* ...Once I get a REAL apartment, I can at least call a "bedroom" an "office." In other news, my spelling has gotten WORSE as the night progresses...Wait, it's morning, is it not?

Good morning, Vietnam!! That's precisely what's going on inside my laptop right now!! The poor fan's spent the better part of two hours belting out the most wretched tune...sounds as if it's going to launch into orbit at any given point in time.

...Where are we sitting? --> Frame 85 / 108. On a lighter note, even when Maya CRASHES, the rendering process continues. FTW!

...I'm going to create a sign while I wait...the bathroom will now officially be known as "the Bat Cave..." and this laptop kinda' sounds like a Batmobile...although it's kind of taking me places, only too bloody slowly to acknowledge X|

Happy Camper

The modeling portion of my demo reel project is finished; I also decided to incorporate some of my best work over the past year. Although the crate was modeled by my instructor, Brett McLaughlin, I created the texture for it. The reel will showcase, in turntable format, my best models, finishing off with an adorable animated short, of my happy little camper!

Good Morning Vietna----aaaah I Mean College <:3

Back at the big house, another day. Exciting news to report on, as per public transit. Apparently, if you're listening to harmonica on your iPod, today's your lucky day! Crank up that volume so all your fellow passengers can hear the joyous sounds of the your music. ...If nothing else, this was a refreshing change from hearing rap music :3

Mildly distracted today ... Tummy's feeling a mild tickle. X3

Progress & Parents

Groovy day at the big house! I thought my kiddie book was done ... until I had it printed; everything was too dark! Recoloured every page, re-exported it (or as I'd like to call it "Losing an argument with InDesign) X| ...Someday, we'll see eye-to-eye, ID and I.

All that's left on this rock star plate is ... music video? Yes! It is true >:3 ... I assure it to be my most derpy vid yet. So grab some popcorn, sit back and wait for the link to materialize ..... waaaaaait for iiiiiiit ....

Took the opportunity to visit more with Mom & Eric while they're in the city. Fab night; I'm always happy to see them.

Nothing too newsy on the job bank home front ... many entrance level pharmaceutical positions available...Want me touching your drugs?? Didn't think so. Dream summer job: McNally Robinson. Why? It's four blocks from here, and the place reeks of coffee and BOOKS!!! <3

Bend is My Friend

So the tail mission was a great success.....I sure wish I knew what I was actually doing -- then this piece won't pop up as a polygonal embarrassment.

If all else fails, I want an entire army of these!!

3D Cat - Fake Rigging

Seeing as we won't be learning how to rig a model for some time, I decided to put my my MacGuyver cap on to come up with a way for my 3D cat to still move around.

Even though the arms and legs are solid objects, a quick manipulation to each pivot point will allow for basic movement. Of course, limbs bend and fold as they're contorting...that's where my new best friend comes in. Can you guess? It starts with "Blend" and ends with me jigging happily, while [real] cats look on in wonderment. "Why is she doing that?!" I can hear them meow. "Our eyes are bleeding!!"

I fully realize this model isn't of any high quality standard -- in fact, I've just started using Maya September 2010. With that being said, I'm quite pleased with how this has come to fruition. The final animation may not even happen prior to Open House, but I'd like to continue working with this little guy through out the summer. Heck, maybe even try to learn rigging on my own?! lol .... Yah, wish me luck ... 8}

Still Needs Work

...But I've imported him into the scene I created for "Hogan" [DMT Anim2 Assignment].

3D Cat Model

With tunes like this, how can I lose?! http://bit.ly/gZzM7k [Chrono Trigger].
(My heart just fluttered looking at the renders #nerd....yup, that's my kitty!)

Click to view full size image!...I think I've earned me some breakfast!

Animation for Reel

I had a groovy idea when I woke up this morning ... I couldn't shake it, even after such little sleep!! X3 Going to model the cats from my kiddie book and add them to the tropical island scene I modeled for my last project!

WIP


Only half, but looking like a kitty cat none the less!!

There...Book Cover Complete!

It took some convincing on my part at first...I didn't want to keep the same "look" of the characters on the cover. Why? Once readers hit the "About the Author" part, they'll understand: that's a real cat on the cover! X3 He's one of many of my inspirations.
...Alright, instead of breaking out into a "Chicago" tune, here's the final cover.

Successful Fail

...I think I just took the award for Most Dork-Off-ery in the past hour .... Looks like it's time for bed.

Final Web Site Finished!

Finally submitted tonight; excellent code party at the school :3 That was much cooler than sitting around here, working...much.

Here's a groovy snippet of the final home page - also spliced and finished the "Music" and "Events" pages.

Happy Easter!

This Easter weekend's being happily spent working! I'm near completion on the children's book project, I'm very excited for it to be done!! :D Not on account of finishing a project; the original "Let's Pretend" book was written and illustrated close to ten years ago, this one's got a special place in my heart.

It's been updated to showcase my two cats, as well as the Love Bird and Basset Hound they each grew up with :3

Web Dev Final Project

Updated the logo; stuck with the moon theme from their original logo.
...I'm having way too much fun with logo design, back to coding!

My Favorite White

When I was younger, it was nothing more than "white & black..." or to be more descriptive, #fff & #000. Lucky for me, a few years back, I discovered (what I like to call) my favorite white.

#e3e3e3 -- It's not as sharp a hit to the eyes when reading this over a black background.

Productive Day

Spent the day working from home -- what a great day! I've gotten everything entered onto our Class Trip group site, finished doing my taxes, finished my banking and have successfully started my final web site project! My knowledge has grown quite nicely in HTML & CSS ... I very much enjoy coding!

Back to work! ... If the cats let me X3

Progress Tastes Like Coffee!

It's been a great weekend so far on the work front. Here are a few screen shots of the children's book as it progresses.

Not Sleepy Enough?

I barely slept last night; enjoyed my time at the 2nd year DMT's fund raising social. They're good cats, they is. Unfortunately for my sanity, I didn't go to bed until 4am...and then early to rise after 7am, to get my butt over to the big house for a marketing test [#WritingForTheWeb] and to hand in hard copies of an assignment. Perseverance + Coffee = Holy cats, I'm still awake!

To the King's Head Pub after 2pm; we had a good class of socializing. It's mighty important to network. I didn't drink much more, I was so tired this morning I think I was still a wee bit loopy. I rarely party on a week-night, but it was for a good cause: giving my fellow peeps money, to help raise the funds for the expense of their Open House event.

We're going to be there next year, ourselves. Why not help out where we can, eh?

...Still not sleepy...Going to colour the children's book a wee bit more, I've been looking forward to the colouring process for some time.

In closing, I've successfully burnt my tongue about four times in the past 24 hours.
...And this is still my all-time favorite colour palette! 83

Doing My Taxes Online

Yes, it is a fun thing. I adore paperwork and taking care of my own affairs, so this year I've decided yet again to do my own taxes.

This little gem comes highly recommended by myself! H&R Block's free-to-try online software is a user friendly experience that helps you along the way to get your yearly tax return completed.

Try it free and it's just shy of $20.00 to file a single return.

Now go forth! Embrace this new year of taxable income! :3

DMT Open House...We're Invited!

I'm super excited about this year's DMT Open House for the 2nd year students...primarily because we're invited as well! I'm looking forward to viewing their works, as well as meeting people in the industry!

For the next month, I plan on getting together my best work for a reel, but I'm going to challenge myself to model a new character -- something that will set me apart from the rest of the reels -- something that we haven't worked on as a school project.

#Excitement!

Cold? Flu?

I could give a million reasons as to the logical answer: why I'm feeling this way.
...Or I can just give in to the fact that "I'm coming down with something."

*sigh* ...I still say it's something minimal, like dehydration or ... do your muscles and stomach act up when you've been coding too much? ... *Oh crumbs..*

"All I Have to Do...."

I must have said to myself "apocolypse" at some point before going to bed, because the dream I had last night was -- to say the least -- an adventure that I hope never happens in this lifetime.

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It all started out like a regular day; I was in my apartment in the city, cats were hanging around as they usually are, my buddy Jen was over. For reasons unknown, we were just looking out the window. We'd just finished watching news reports about, either, I can't remember - natural disasters happening or some sort of apocalyptic chaos going on around the world - we deducted that clearly, this wouldn't possibly come to our part of the world.

No sooner having said that, what looked to be large meteors rained down on the city; huge fiery orbs of what was in fact the same terror sweeping over the globe.

It was quite vivid, I remember all my feelings and thoughts: I was frightened and naturally, we didn't know what to do. All I knew was that we needed to pack up what little belongings we needed, and decided to head to Jen's home province of Nova Scotia. Greatly afeared for my two cats, I constructed a double backpack device where I could have each of them on my back; the zippers slightly open, to give them air, so they would be safe with me throughout our journey.

With the city, overcome by this chaos, we packed some food as well, and looked at a map of Canada. For some strange reason, we decided that the best way to approach this journey was to travel westward, along the border of Canada -- the only bizarre thing before; on the map, Nova Scotia was on the far-most west wing of the country and the United States border wasn't there at all, beneath us - it was pure ocean.

While journeying through the obstacles of our homeland, it became clear there were demonic creatures looming around the earth. At one point, Jen and I needed to duck beneath (what looked to be an indoor windowsill) to avoid being spotted. These creatures were massive in size; larger than human beings. They had horns atop their heads, and with some, spikes all over their bodies - frightful creatures roamed the earth, searching for what living populace still struggled for absolution amidst the pandemonium afoot.

After having ducked beneath the sill, assurance that the creature was gone was needed prior to moving forward. I peeked up from the depths of safety, to my dismay, the reflection in the glass was distorting my view; I couldn't see at all, and momentarily anxious that what I was looking at - was this creature staring right at me. Luckily, Jen peeked her head above the sill as well, and the creature was long gone; it'd wandered back off into the distance, diametrical to us.

Moving forward, I recall meeting up with a pile of people from my class. With speculating the area we came to was safe, we started building a room - looked as if it were constructed from cubicle walls - we needed a safe area to "work in.." I'm not certain what we planned to do to help rectify the situation, but [Danielle, who is in my class], found the perfect area beside a river where we would set up this shelter. Someone else had pointed out that it was more accurate to her map - that for reasons unknown, had drawn up for the operation - as the small, meadow was positioned close to the river - and across from a herd of - what looked to be deer (?) but these creatures could have also passed for a more docile looking pack that had been roaming the earth.

After having built, what seemed to be, sturdy enough lodging for our operation, we fell into mild anxiety, with the reality of this one wall being quite open - anything could see us if it peered in through the slots.

At some other point, our journey continued on through the ocean, as planned on the original map (Nova Scotia, directionally reversed.)

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By this point, things were starting to become less vivid; instead of watching this from my own eyes, things were becoming blurry in view. There was some obvious conflict; it seemed as though one of us had a device (maybe it was the map), and we traversed through this great body of water, on nothing more than a small raft. Vague memories of encountering a great sea creature; I cannot recall what happened from then on. To my knowledge, I still had my kitties in tow; safely strapped to the McGuiver-like contraption I carried with me - they were safe and (for a change), strangely quite...they weren't meowing, as they often do.

So many vivid emotions throughout the course of our journey -- all I remember is the nurturing instinct to see that the boys were safe. (Lucky for me, it didn't feel like their weight bothered me).

TGIF!! I love work weekends! :3

Why yes, another weekend is upon us!! 83 Nothing excites me more these days than the aspect of sitting down to a heavy workload of fantastic proportions!! X3 Over achiever? *shrugs* Life could be a lot worse, I suppose. As well, it cuts the loneliness down by about two thirds...and a handful of ju jubes can only make the world go further 'round.

Goodness, I really wish my neighbors below me would stop screaming at each other <:-( Sounds as if there are small children in that apartment. ...... Here's hoping they're just "incredibly loud when happy to see each other?!"

Cute observation: Blogger isn't spellchecking typed l33t speak! What next?! Maybe the headless horsemen of the apocalypse will come in rainbow colours???

Double Apocalypse Rainbow..."What does it mean?!"

Alright, enough buggering around, back to work I go!!

Quick Photoshoot

Just a quick derp to get into the design zone this morning.

Book Cover for "Never Let Me Go"

Term 2, book cover for "Never Let Me Go" by Kazuo Shiguro.

Rotoscope

In Term 1, I made a arthroscope image of myself, as a mermaid :3 ...Yup, even as a sea creature, I bet I'd still be wearing that sweater! Done in Illustrator.

Potential Logo: Re-Branding

We took part in a re-branding project this past term, and chose Kay's Delicatessen - a lovely deli, situated close to the college. This logo didn't become a part of our project, but I still like how it turned out.

Tilde, represents heat lines, as well as the "pause" symbol. For more information about this wonderful family-owned and opperated restaurant, visit their blog here at Kay's Delicatessen.

The Wandering Gypsy Market [Banner]

My sister's shop, which can be found on Etsy.com. Click here to view her company Facebook page.
She sells handmade purses and other fab things!

ZenGarden.com

With only having changed the CSS, here's my graphical contribution to ZenGraden.com - this was a lot of fun, not only in the creation process, but with the coding in general.

Mockup; Sliced and Ready for Action!

Created the mockup, sliced it up and coded in HTML/CSS.

Year 1 - Term 1 Works

I haven't posted much at all on my blog, so here are a few gems from my first year at Red River College, Digital Multimedia Technology - Year 1, Term 1.

Poster layout design: Buhler Centre

Logo for the St. James Assiniboia Senior Centre

I'm quite pleased with how this has turned out. My inspiration for this logo came to me, through the idea of the Lotus flower as being very vibrant and independent.

[RD.org - Oct. 24, 2010] - To Sleep, Perchance…

I had the creepiest dream last night! I’ve had quite the full day, so I’d forgotten about it, until this evening. It started out with all the characters from the new Harvest Moon game that I’ve been playing: Grand Bazaar – and I know it was them, because I saw sprite images of the twin children and their mother, being nearly swallowed up in death, on the big get away bus-like vessel.

Chapter One

It seemed as though the entire Harvest Moon cast was running from something, trying to escape from an entity so fierce, it made grown men lose all emotional control within the vessel. Much like the phantom forces in the Final Fantasy movie, this deadly creature swept through the bus in a zig zag pattern, leaving every character in the diagonal opposite seats, perished. To their dismay, there was no way that they could vanquish the terror that lunged after them in the darkness.

At one point, the main character [I believe it was a male], was trying to stay out of sight within this great mansion, while he searched for his lady love. (Again in pixel form…yes, I’m a nerd and I’m proud of it). At one point, he knew that the master of the house had spotted him, as his efforts to vanish quickly up the stairs left him with shoulders sticking out from the stairwell landing. Although, the master of the house did not advance. He did not have to, as he knew that the demonic creature loose on the horizon, would catch up with them eventually.

Unfortunately while in hunt, his lady love was in fact the daughter of the master. With having grown up in the building, he nearly wretched at the thought that he might have to search dozens of rooms until he found her – she has made home of every one.

He could hear her…the soft pattering of his foot steps nearly drown out the sound he sought – he knew she was close, as he continued quietly treading down the halls. It was of the greatest importance that he stayed silent and out of sight – for to protect his master, the wind howled beneath it’s great wings, soaring constantly between the intruders within the castle and the rescue mission drawing nearer, from the speeding bus.

Alas, once the feeling of a lifetime had passed, the hero confronted his lady love, from the cloak of darkness. All her maids had left momentarily, as they spoke.

“You must come with us, fair maiden,” he breathed as his heart furiously raced. “We have no other hope in destroying that foul creature, if you are not a part of our plans.”

She sighed ponderously, as she let her gaze drift towards the chamber window. Light velvet curtains blew gently as the wind seemed to animate the anxiousness in them all. “You do know, kind sir,” she whispered. “The possibility lies in which I may not return. Who then, will carry on the reign in this land?”

A cross look jetted across his brow, as he gently grabbed hold of her wrist. “Milady, this appears to be our only chance of restoring the kingdom…Wouldst thou rather be queen of a ghastly land with no people?
“We have come far to enlist in your services, my dear…one chance doth permit us light unto certain darkness. This yarn I follow, in your foot steps, milady. I will follow you, wherever direction thou wind may blow.”

Her heart ached. Once having unleashed this nightmare creature, certainty lay within her mind, the battle would be as fruitless as trying to stop a freight train using a feather. From having traveled as far as the clan had, more than half of their men, women and children had perished, by the translucent hand of the beast. A fast lesson, it was, for the children who were not able to bury their parents, as their lives depended only on the steady continuation of the journey forward. Not one crew member knew what lied beyond their path. With only a distant feeling in the back of each mind, carelessly whispering confirmation, this would be the longest night of their lives.

"Amidst this grotesque light, it waits..
Solemn anguish wanes from brow–
Unto the hearts, of shortened fates,
Ours are heavy, yet unbowed.

I’ve often frightened dreams, love,
Of whence they float away.
While buried deep in mind, love,
My heart knows, here they lay."

~Jen Dyck

Shutting Down

Yup, it's time to get rid of that web store -- I don't have the time to promote it properly; I'd rather be pursuing my education. Maybe I'll keep the digital scrapbook designing on the back burner, for when I need something fun to do? :3 That would make me smile, how I enjoy making those kits and products!

I'll post a few of the [rubydragon.org] blog posts here, other than that, I'm going to keep this site open, and it shall remain the only one.

Back to Normal in the Attic...

Yes, I'm feeling much more "myself," today -- not sure what the heck happened this past week...maybe I missed working? *shrugs* Who knows, really. Between the full moon, sugar withdrawal and back-to-school, it could have been an amalgamation of these. Yes, I'm trying to cut out sugar completely - why not? There are natural sugars found in fruit and vegetables, why get carried away?

I've also been pondering shutting down my website + store -- it's been a fun ride, but I need to start concentrating more on my major, start leaving some of these "wants" in the dust; work on the "needs" for now.

An Exercise in Patience

Did I spell that right? *shrugs* Well it's official: my car is stuck in the parking lot 8| I didn't think there would be anything wrong with leaving it parked for nearly two months--oh wait, yes, I completely disregarded Mother Nature's amusing way of making sure we're paying attention = by freezing the blasted thing to the ground!

Hello, CAA, I require your assistance...am I embarrassed? Jeepers, no! I'm glad I got CAA...although, this is starting to make me wonder, if I should risk a long trip at all! I'd check the tread on the tires to confirm my safety *sigh* If only I knew what I was looking for.

They should arrive in about a half hour; what a darling company. There is no prejudice for the stupid situations we get ourselves into. I'm glad there's no guidelines to "what kind of tow" one requires. Could you imagine living in a world with such services??

Customer: Good day, customer service. I would like to acquire your assistance.
CAA Rep.: Alright, may I please have the location of your vehicle?
Customer: It is currently in my parking space.
CAA Rep.: . . .
Customer: Hello?!
CAA Rep.: (clears throat) Yes, uh -- ma'am -- It is unfortunate that I must deny you our services--
Customer: What?!
CAA Rep.: Uh--affirmative: Our policy does not cover you if your vehicle is safely parked .. at your home location.

This is the part where my head explodes. ...Can a can of mousse freeze and explode in under an hour?? Maybe I should have waited to pack my things. If it explodes, I do hope it does so, before I get onto the highway.

* * *

Thirty more minutes, and I will be absolved of my own idiocy!! Although, it's times like this as well, I wonder if I should be going anywhere. What dost thou forecast, O' Great Fibber of Weather....

* * *

Since the accident earlier in the year, I've been frightfully nervous to get back behind the wheel. It's always a good to reassert one's self to get back behind the wheel -- even if it takes me twice as long.

I know I am stronger than this. It's time to face this blasted demon and move forward.....with the help of CAA, of course <:-) Have a happy Reading Week, I'm heading home!

Minno - 3 Side View

This little darling's nearly ready for colouring! I'm very excited with how it's going so far.
I've also been meaning to design a tarot deck for some time now; seeing this little dolly makes me want to design one based on the horoscope and tarot elements =3

Meet the future Knight of Pentacles/Discs:

"Minno" - So Far, So Good

Looks great so far, in grayscale. I layered this one up, kind of wonky: I'll fix this in the front and side views.

Little Minotaur Scuba Diver

A little something for my Graphic Design course; I'm going to break out the tablet and finish up this guy tonight. I believe we only need the line work done for tomorrow.

Yes, progress can in fact be this adorable.

Six of One, Half a Dozen of the Other...

I've spent much of the past few years pondering just how "accomplished" I appear to be. It's only me who feels this way; it's no matter if others don't accept this or understand it: who really knows your life as you do?

The more I get to know other feel, I feel pale in comparison with their accomplishments. Who's comparing? And more importantly, why do I feel the need to compare my intelligence to someone else?

The answer is simple: compatibility, acceptance. Not everyone is going to be compatible with me and I need to accept this. On the other hand, I'm only being a snob by just letting opportunities slip by me, by not even trying.

...This speaking in cryptic is not very "me" at all. To ask or not to ask...such is the conundrum we stand to face. I can argue this eight ways from Sunday!!

1) Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all (a little much, but hot in the positive aspects).
2) If you don't try, then you'll never know.
3) Actions speak louder than words: once the deed is done, then the next part of this puzzle can either be put to rest or progress.

*Think*Think*Think* I think far too much for my own good.

When is the best time to stop thinking and to just act? It's important to think before you act...

In closing, what needs to be addressed is the general hierarchy of the situation - while this is important to only me, without acting, nothing will change in anyone's world. Where do I see this as a priority in my own life? Can I make time for the potential stresses that may follow? How realistic are my motives? And why does blogging feel as if I'm just talking to myself? (Hehehehe!)

If nothing else, I stand true to this one inspiring notion: that in life, there are no right or wrong answers. We will make our decisions based on what we feel is best for us. "Nothing ventured, nothing gained," have truer words ever been spoken? I fear only the potential of what could come from this: that being, "nothing sacrificed, nothing lost."

I would answer this, myself, using an "if" operator...only "if" I could receive a solid TRUE or FALSE. Hahaha..I'm enjoying my scripting classes; I like coding so much, I'm contemplating taking it as a major instead of 3D Animation.

..I need to do something fun to relax my brain tonight...