Six of One, Half a Dozen of the Other...

I've spent much of the past few years pondering just how "accomplished" I appear to be. It's only me who feels this way; it's no matter if others don't accept this or understand it: who really knows your life as you do?

The more I get to know other feel, I feel pale in comparison with their accomplishments. Who's comparing? And more importantly, why do I feel the need to compare my intelligence to someone else?

The answer is simple: compatibility, acceptance. Not everyone is going to be compatible with me and I need to accept this. On the other hand, I'm only being a snob by just letting opportunities slip by me, by not even trying.

...This speaking in cryptic is not very "me" at all. To ask or not to ask...such is the conundrum we stand to face. I can argue this eight ways from Sunday!!

1) Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all (a little much, but hot in the positive aspects).
2) If you don't try, then you'll never know.
3) Actions speak louder than words: once the deed is done, then the next part of this puzzle can either be put to rest or progress.

*Think*Think*Think* I think far too much for my own good.

When is the best time to stop thinking and to just act? It's important to think before you act...

In closing, what needs to be addressed is the general hierarchy of the situation - while this is important to only me, without acting, nothing will change in anyone's world. Where do I see this as a priority in my own life? Can I make time for the potential stresses that may follow? How realistic are my motives? And why does blogging feel as if I'm just talking to myself? (Hehehehe!)

If nothing else, I stand true to this one inspiring notion: that in life, there are no right or wrong answers. We will make our decisions based on what we feel is best for us. "Nothing ventured, nothing gained," have truer words ever been spoken? I fear only the potential of what could come from this: that being, "nothing sacrificed, nothing lost."

I would answer this, myself, using an "if" operator...only "if" I could receive a solid TRUE or FALSE. Hahaha..I'm enjoying my scripting classes; I like coding so much, I'm contemplating taking it as a major instead of 3D Animation.

..I need to do something fun to relax my brain tonight...

Finally Moving!

=3 Yes, it's true! I've finally sold my house in town here and I've found a great place to live for the upcoming months: my Dad's house, out of town! I feel so fortunate that I feel as if I am the luckiest girl in the world!

Tomorrow after work, he will be in town, and he's asked that I have a bunch of stuff (that I won't be needing in the next short while) packed up, so we can move it with us when we go tomorrow.

Life so far has been kind of strange: I've become kind of distant with the kittehs and I fear that Pickles is suffering in a way, where he's acting out like a rebellious "teen." Spook, however, seems to be unaffected by a lot of this and I wonder if we've become closer. I'm happy for that, but I want to work harder to help Pickles feel happier - I worry about him; he acts out, attacks for no reason - he's not happy and I feel it's because I've been neglecting them. :(

Now I'm almost finished my supper for the evening - am I stalling? What I have to do tonight:

• pack - I want to get some stuff in the upstairs PACKED
• >> in the closet
• >> in the 2 dressers
• >> possibly some random crap

It's now 8pm - I feel over whelmed when I "think" about the process and feel that it is best to just DO IT - once I am doing it, I'll feel better once boxes and bags continue to "pile up!" I may get only a short bit done tonight, but I guarantee: there is also a life lesson in this - and I believe I heard it right, on the news tonight; a great piece about a Winnipeg animator, Cordell Barker [link to CTV clip here] - he said:

"It's like most things in life: it's the anticipation is much worse than the reality." Quote Cordell Barker

=3 *cheers & big hugs to Barker* I really needed to hear that right now, let alone it was very inspiring to hear a clip on animation ... I'm going to get cracking on packing *a-hahaaaaaaboy* =3

*big hugs, lots of love*

PS - Barker says, to what makes a great animator: "Storytelling, timing, structure." Quote Cordell Barker

... PS - He's super good looking for an older dude ;-) X-D